We had wanted to leave our homes before six in the morning but left late and lazy at ten or ten-thirty with hurried smirks and heads turned to the road, West driving out against the noonward horizon and visions before us of the great up-and-over
and tired we were already of stiff-armed driving neurotics in Montreal and monstrous foreheaded yellow bus drivers ugly children with long middle fingers and tired we were of breaking and being yelled at by beardless bums but thought about the beards at home we loved and gave a smile and a wave nonetheless
Who were sick and tired of driving by nine but then had four more hours still with half a tank then a third of a tank then a quarter of a tank then no tank at all except for the great artillery halt and discovery of our tyre having only three quarters of its bolts
Saved by the local sobriety and the mystic conscious kindness of the wise and the elderly and the strangers: Autoshop Gale with her discount familiar kindness; Hilda making ready supper and Ray like I’ve known you for years that offered me tools whose functions I’ve never known and a handshake goodbye
and "yes we will say hello to your son in Alberta" and "yes we will continue safely" and "no you won’t see us in tomorrow’s paper" and tired I was of hearing about us in tomorrow’s paper
Who ended up on a road laughing deliverance in Ralphton, a small town hunting lodge full of flapjacks and a choir of chainsaws with cheap tomato juice and eggs but the four of us ended up paying for eight anyway
and these wooden alley cats were nothing but hounds and the backwoods is where you’d find a cheap child's banjo and cheap leather shoes and bear traps and rat traps and the kinds of things you’d fall into face first
Who sauntered into a cafe in Massey that just opened up two weeks previous where the food was warm and made from home and the owner who swore to high heaven and piled her Sci-Fi collection to the ceiling in forms of books and VHS
but Massey herself was drowned in a small town where there was little history and heavy mist and the museum was closed for renovations and the stores were run by diplomats or sleezebag no-cats and there was one man who wouldn’t show us a room because his baby sitter hadn’t come yet but the babysitter showed up through the backdoor within seconds though I hadn't seen another face
and the room was a landfill and smelled of stale cat **** anyhow and the lobby stacked to the ceiling with empty beer box cans bottles and the taps ran cold yellow and hot black through spigots
but we would be staying down the street at the inn of an East-Indian couple who’s eyes were not dilated and the room smelled lemon-scented
and kept on driving lovingly without a care in the world but only one of us had his arms around a girl and how lonely I felt driving with Jacob in the fog of the Agawa pass;
following twin red eyes down a steep void mass where the birch trees have no heads and the marshes pool under the jagged foothills that climb from the water above their necks
that form great behemoths with great voices bellowing and faces chiselled hard looking down and my own face turned upward toward the rain
Wheels turning on a black asphalt river running uphill around great Superior that is the ocean that isn’t the ocean but is as big as the sea and the cloud banks dig deep and terrible walls
and the sky ends five times before night truly falls and the sun sets slower here than anywhere but the sky was only two miles high and ten long anyway
The empty train tracks that seldom run and some rails have been lifted out with a handful of spikes that now lay dormant
and the hill sides start to resemble ******* or faces or the slow curving back of some great whale
-and those, who were finally stranded at four pumps with none but the professional Jacob reading great biblical instructions at the nozzle nowhere at midnight in a town surrounded
by moose roads moose lanes moose rivers and everything mooses
ending up sleeping in the maw of a great white wolf inn run by Julf or Wolf or John but was German nonetheless
and woke up with radios armed and arms full and coffee up to the teeth with teeth chattering and I swear to God I saw snowy peaks but those came to me in waking dream:
"Mountains dressed in white canvas gowns and me who placed my hands upon their ******* that filled the sky"
Passing through a buffet of inns and motels and spending our time unpacking and repacking and talking about drinking and cheap sandwiches but me not having a drink in eight days
and in one professional inn we received a professional scamming and no we would not be staying here again and what would a trip across the country be like if there wasn’t one final royal scamming to be had
and dreams start to return to me from years of dreamless sleep:
and I dream of hers back home and ribbons in a raven black lattice of hair and Cassadaic exploits with soft but honest words
and being on time with the trains across the plains and the moon with a shower of prairie blonde and one of my father with kind words and my mother on a bicycle reassuring my every decision
Passing eventually through great plains of vast nothingness but was disappointed in seeing that I could see and that the rumours were false and that nothingness really had a population and that the great flat land has bumps and curves and etchings and textures too
beautiful bright golden yellow like sprawling fingers white knuckled ablaze reaching up toward the sun that in this world had only one sky that lasted a thousand years
and prairie driving lasts no more than a mountain peak and points of ember that softly sigh with the one breath of our cars windows that rushes by with gratitude for your smile
And who was caught up with the madness in the air with big foaming cigarettes in mouths who dragged and stuffed down those rolling fumes endlessly while St. Jacob sang at the way stations and billboards and the radio which was turned off
and me myself and I running our mouth like the coughing engine chasing a highway babe known as the Lady Valkyrie out from Winnipeg all the way to Saskatoon driving all day without ever slowing down and eating up all our gas like pez and finally catching her;
Valkyrie who taught me to drive fast and hovering 175 in slipstreams and flowing behind her like a great ghost Cassady ******* in dreamland Nebraska only 10 highway crossings counted from home.
Lady Valkyrie who took me West. Lady Valkyrie who burst my wings into flame as I drew a close with the sun. Lady Valkyrie who had me howl at slender moon;
who formed as a snowflake in the light on the street and was gone by morning before I asked her name
and how are we? and how many?
Even with old Tom devil singing stereo and riding shotgun the entire trip from day one singing about his pony, and his own personal flophouse circus, and what was he building in there?
There is a fair amount of us here in these cars. Finally at light’s end finding acquiescence in all things and meeting with her eye one last time; flashed her a wink and there I was, gone. Down the final highway crossing blowing wind and fancy and mouth puttering off roaring laughter into the distance like some tremendous Phoenix.
Goodnight Lady Valkyrie.
The evening descends and turns into a sandwich hysteria as we find ourselves riding between cities of transports and that one mad man that passed us speeding crazy and almost hit head-on with Him flowing East
and passed more and more until he was head of the line but me driving mad lunacy followed his tail to the bumper passing fifteen trucks total to find our other car and felt the great turbine pull of acceleration that was not mine
mad-stacked behind two great beasts and everyone thought us moon-crazy; Biblical Jake and Mad Hair Me driving a thousand eschewing great gusts of wind speed flying
Smashing into the great ephedrine sunset haze of Saskatoon and hungry for food stuffed with the thoughts of bedsheets off the highway immediately into the rotting liver of dark downtown but was greeted by an open Hertz garage with a five-piece fanfare brass barrage William Tell and a Debussy Reverie and found our way to bedsheets most comfortably
Driving out of Saskatoon feeling distance behind me. Finding nothing but the dead and hollow corpses of roadside ventures;
more carcasses than cars and one as big as a moose and one as big as a bear and no hairier
and driving out of sunshine plain reading comic book strip billboards and trees start to build up momentum and remembering our secret fungi in the glove compartment that we drove three thousand kilometres without remembering
and we had a "Jesus Jacob, put it away brother" and went screaming blinded by smoke and paranoia and three swerves got us right and we hugged the holy white line until twilight
And driving until the night again takes me foremast and knows my secret fear in her ***** as the road turns into a lucid *** black and makes me dizzy and every shadow is a moose and a wildcat and a billy goat and some other car
and I find myself driving faster up this great slanderous waterfall until I meet eye with another at a thousand feet horizontal
then two eyes
then a thousand wide-eyed peaks stretching faces upturned to the celestial black with clouds laid flat as if some angel were sleeping ******* on a smokestack and the mountains make themselves clear to me after waiting a lifetime for a glimpse then they shy away behind some old lamppost and I don’t see them until tomorrow
and even tomorrow brings a greater distance with the sunlight dividing stone like 'The Ancient of Days' and moving forward puts all into perspective
while false cabins give way and the gas stations give way and the last lamppost gives way and its only distance now that will make you true and make your peaks come alive
Like a bullrush, great grey slopes leap forth as if branded by fire then the first peaks take me by surprise and I’m told that these are nothing but children to their parents and the roads curve into a gentle valley and we’re in the feeding zone
behind the gates of some great geological zoo watching these lumbering beasts finishing up some great tribal ******* because tomorrow they will be shrunk and tomorrow ever-after smaller
Nonetheless, breathless in turn I became it began snowing and the pines took on a different shape and the mountains became covered white and great glaciers could be seen creeping and tourists seen gawking at waterfalls and waterfowls and fowl play between two stones a thousand miles high
climbing these Jasper slopes flying against wind and stone and every creak lets out its gentle tone and soft moans as these tyres rub flat against your back your ancient skin your rock-hard bones
and this peak is that peak and it’s this one too and that’s Temple, and that’s Whistler and that’s Glasgow and that’s Whistler again and those are the Three Sisters with ******* ablaze
and soft glowing haze your sun sets again among your peaks and we wonder how all these caves formed and marvelled at what the flood brought to your feet as roads lay wasted by the roadside
in the epiphany of 3:00am realizing that great Alta's straights and highway crossings are formed in torturous mess from mines of 'Mt. Bleed' and broken ribs and liver of crushed mountain passes and the grey stones taxidermied and peeled off and laid flat painted black and yellow; the highways built from the insides of the mountain shells
Who gave a “What now. New-Brunswick?” and a “What now, Quebec, and Ontario, and Manitoba, and Saskatchewan"; **** fools clumsily dancing in the valleys; then the rolling hills; then the sea that was a lake then the prairies and not yet the mountains;
running naked in formation with me at the lead and running naked giving the finger to the moon and the contrails, and every passing blur on the highway dodging rocks, and sandbars and the watchful eye of Mr. and Mrs. Law and holes dug-up by prairie dogs and watching with no music as the family caravans drove on by
but drove off laughing every time until two got anxious for bed and slowed behind while the rambling Jacob and I had to wait in the half-moon spectacle of a black-tongue asphalt side-road hacking darts and watching for grizzlies for the other two to finish up with their birthday *** exploits though it was nobodies birthday
and then a timezone was between us and they were in the distant future and nobodies birthday was in an hour from now
then everything was good and everyone was satiated then everything was a different time again and I was running on no sleep or a lot of it leaping backward in time every so often like gaining a new day but losing space on the surface of your eye
but I stared up through curtains of starlight to mother moon and wondered if you also stared and was dumbfounded by the majesty of it all
and only one Caribou was seen the entire trip and only one live animal, and some forsaken deer and only a snake or a lonesome caterpillar could be seen crossing such highway straights but the water more refreshing and brighter than steel and glittered as if it were hiding some celestial gem and great ravines and valleys flowed between everything and I saw in my own eye prehistoric beasts roaming catastrophe upon these plains but the peaks grew ever higher and I left the ground behind