You told me this all before
They say it all again
but they never understand
Deep down I know the truth
But things happen and its not me.
I'm lost somewhere I sure
And I can't make my mistake.

I'm trapped in a room
With no Windows or doors.
I'm trapped in a box
With no keys but a lock.
I'm tortured inside
With no cure to be found.
It's not me who is showing.

When the darkness takes over
The real me is lost.
I feel a different person inside
I know I've been lost.
It can take days, weeks, months
For my true self to return.
I'm trapped once again.

I often think about myself,
That I'm worthless and weak.
I often think I can't make it,
That I'm a terrible person.
I feel like a failure
Often a loser too.
I can't escape from my nightmares.

I cry so often on my sleep,
I cry in front of people
But they cannot see.
I often do not eat
I starve away the pain ,
Instead of cutting
No matter what I hurt.

I want to scream
But no one hears me.
I want to cut
But it makes me feel worse.
I want to cry
but I am afraid of these people.
I never know what to do.

With words I've been betrayed
You tell me that you care
But I won't let you bring me down.
Tell me why it's always me
The one that always feels scared.
You smile when I fear the world
After you promised to be there.

I can't trust people
I'm too scared to let them in.
People tell me to be strong
But they don't know what it's like
To be lost inside your own head
With nowhere to escape
But let the darkness consume me.