And these are the hell texts I never send to
a child I never had a hard chance with
a distance relationship with a little girl


Dear daughter,

How's your day going?
Can we chat?

I'm sorry but I'm not having a great day.

Maybe a visit with my daughter
who I Love
to cry about
in my dreams
will help me get away from
my current troubles with sleeping?

Yes, I have recurring nightmares of having had lost you
in some weird strange city
and I'm driving or running around not ever finding you.

I'm Going up to strangers asking if you have been seen.

I've lost her...

I can't find her ...

It's just terribly sad stuff you wouldn't want to dream and wake up crying about

Or want to forget it
happened when you wake up...


Somehow, I feel it's really real or
has already been happening.

Sorry so 😔