after four long years
and feelings so intense,
after four long years
when i was such a fool
to think i could be loved
after it all
the downs and the falls
the highs and the climbs

how could you
tear me apart?

where did all the respect go,
must i rip off my own head
just to make you satisfied?
am i to be chained to one place, and
never see anyone
just not to get slit by your tongue?

am i really that hard to love?

i gave it my best,
why did you stop trying?
since when did i deserve
such foul language
and threats to come to my house?
calls to my family,
lies being spread?
no friend was left alone,
then you explode?

what the hell did i do to you?
you impaled my heart
and poisoned it with your words
now my perception of love
is forever ruined
now i am unloveable
i am unloveable
after four long years
you showed it to me
i am unloveable
i can never trust anyone to
love me
without an expiration date
for i am unloveable

i am unloveable so much
that after four years, you told me
you didn't know how
disgusting of a place
this world was
until you met me

why am i so unloveable?
everyone will leave me
or i will must leave them first
for if you can say such things
after four, four ******* years
then there is something
fundamentally wrong with me

i am unloveable,
i am unloveable
it is just written in my destiny
in the code of the universe
in the deep seas of the galaxy
i am unloveable
deeply, unchangeable,
i am unloveable
it is that simple
yet so hard to grasp
it may never change
at least that fact will always
be by my side,
like an old friend,
a weird comfort
to know at least one thing straight
until the end of times;

i am unloveable.
it may never change.
it always turns out the same.