the more i open up to love the more i remember why i do not allow myself its folly: what they have had and what they shall want, i have never been privy to and i can not give,
for my hubris is to feel love and to want to give it but not be fortunate enough to make one reciprocate; i was broken before. or i would argue i was made to break.
funny how i still come back doing the same things knowing it will just hurt me
but i hurt no one, and that at the very least is comforting to know.
when no one is there to comfort, there are words to plaster your pain into. and for a short while, you will feel relieved.