God didn’t want me to go backwards
But a part of me feels like you need to know this
He says to me now child turn away and refrain from this , it is only hurting you and him.
So I’ll say this in the purest way possible.
She is the girl you once knew
She is the girl who made your dark days renewed
She is the girl who’d wait to see you and then laugh with you
Hours felt like seconds
Who knew earth could  be shared by two
You taught me so much
How no matter how you care and how much you cry they’ll never change or take accountability
No matter how many years you try to reach out
Their will never be a response
It’s like the image I get in my head
The ******* the floor crying and banging on the door screaming let me in but the door remains shut
So my breathes are now counted
Because as time goes on this earth really never felt like home
My life had no meaning to you
I’ll always be too ghetto for you and you’ll always be the boy who was well off and only wants what he wants and when wants and never care for the damage caused and what was torn apart. You split me into two and then wonder what happened.
Please continue to reject me , treat me like a black sheep and tell me how I could never be loved. One day I’m gonna hug god and say thanking for allowing me to feel so much pain and so much joy. Thank you god for allowing me to see things from your perspective and not the world.