I thought the only way
was to only numb the pain
took every turn till my life was a blur
I was with filled regret
I wished that we never met

been almost a year
yet I still feel you here
you held me down
and I see that now

I thought I was over you
till I saw your face
that beautiful tender grace
brings me back in a spiral daze

I felt better seeing you since October
I knew then I can't hold you ever
cause after all I've been through
I'm not the same person you knew

Now I live a little
indeed I still feel brittle
but I'll keep trying to be better
this time I hope to see you never

I admit I still love you
but there's no going back
I have to accept what I did
and not lose track

If ever our paths cross again
a smile would be enough
so that I know letting you go
was a better option of making you grow