maybe if i did things right
would you be with me?
i just wish i could turn it back
back when i had the chance

you don’t seem to exist anymore
for me that’s unbearable
I came looking for you
even without hopes or a clue
hoping i’d stumble upon what i lost
wish the universe can bare with my simple cause

the more I miss you
the more i hurt
if missing you would **** me
i’d live for a million times

ever since we lost it
I never seem to find it
I changed my ways
went through my own dark days
yet all I could still think of
is that day you took off
I slipped my chance
lost you at a glance
all because I was lost
I can’t hold you without a cause
now I’m changed
better than my previous page
still I’m stuck on us
and i hope you aren’t

Blue was my favorite as a kid
I didn’t know why till now
blue kisses I give
no one seems to notice how

with none to love
none to have
alone as before
i’m used at being bored

heed my warning
blue kisses i give
i wished i knew this before
before i gave you that kiss

I'll be stubborn and keep writing
while knowing this leads to nothing
trails of paper I leave
mountains I heave
with hopes I'll recover
till then I slumber

seeing you heal feels a huge relief
watching you from here makes me proud
but I ask you this, how do you do it?
maybe it falls onto me that I swore to you too much
to the point I can't let go
or maybe I just refuse to let you go

I chose to love one
even now I choose no one
a curse I cast upon me
a curse I accept wholeheartedly
no amount of love can exceed
to what I gave and did
maybe someone could do the same
but we both know
no one else but us
can inflict this much pain