After the surgery feeling gutted Pain tolerance high focused on work Writing to feel mild expression Sometimes emotions are numb Trying to stay positive and upbeat While everyone wallows in misery Not into drama staying clear Don't care for the circle **** Avoiding egos with bad attitudes Rejecting toxic vines of negativity Called selfish for being alone Denied trying to fit in why bother Over all the contradiction and lies Hated for being honest being genuine While the fake try to take you down Not wishing bad like they do I pray things get better and stay away