i woke early and remembered
the days when i drank
waking early when the alcohol
had worn off

and it occurred to me
it has been thirty years
(this year)
a recovering alcoholic

febuary 12 th 1994..
(some kept a bottle by the bed)
i tried to taste wine again
in my mind

and i recalled how i could
not envisage a future of
any kind..
but here i am..