I want to hide it
But it disappeared,
feeling nothing is a bit....
overwhelming,
and just like that,
I realized its turned off,
I'm wondering, would it come back harder,
without a warning?
Would those feelings, those emotions come rushing back in my mind,
like a flood that was waiting to be released?
I hate not knowing any other way to deal,
it comes like second nature to me,
to be able to turn off a part of my mind,
It happened automatically,
I didn't even try.
Guess my body developed
a healing mechanism.
but at the same time,
I have to walk through life not feeling anything,
I don't miss those feelings
I wish I could maybe I shouldn't