"I'm scared...!" she sobs "Of what love?" I cuddle her "Of being in the world!"
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This was when she was only a tiny little thing in the world of long ago but her words ring truer now in this rogue world of ours.
Her granny had just died and this all too too solid world of forever didn't seem as forever as it had before. She no longer trusted it if a granny could vanish...would she vanish too?
She cried and "wanted to go where ever Granny had goed!"
She was looking at a globe and asked me if she were in the world. And is Granny not in the world any more? And when Granny finishes being dead then will she come back? And what good is the world if Granny isn't in it. She sat on my lap and listened to auld Jemmy the Joist reading from Finnegans Wake with his own voice. I asked her what did she think the man was saying and she asked "Did he lose his granny too?"