My reflection in the window sees
me rocking back and forth
no corners or arms that feel like home
except mine
sickening comfort of isolation
worn wooden closet doors of the mind
clasped into lock by the metal eye hook
if a single tear escapes, it may carry my sanity
to be evaporated into the atmosphere
mist too fine to collect in a drinking glass
I hurry too much with my voice
stomach churns to create numb butter
so I rock, to make it think we are on water
being carried back to the place where
I feel magical again
don’t look at me until I do
because I cannot believe that you think I am beautiful