I just realized I will be
spending New Year’s Eve
without him.
Going into the future
completely confused
and alone.
It’s not the first one we’ve spent
apart and it won’t be the last.
But this one feels different
because it’s coming only
a week after he left me again.
And again, for good this time
I think.
Even if he comes back I can no
longer trust him with my heart.
He is so reckless and selfish
with it, only wanting to
amend it when it’s convenient.
I will be starting the new year
without him
but I think it’s a good thing.