****** beyond being ******!

berkeley.

into a bar trips i.

eyeing the "foxy babe" over there.

about an hour..

feeling stupid

go outside!

the magnificence of the stars
and the air on my cheek and the silence
from the **** music!!!

and myself!!

MY SELF IS HERE!

in the stillness
in the silence

looking back at the bar.

DEATH AND RE-BIRTH ON THE STREET.

i think of the hippie girl who lets me stay with her

a song comes to my mind

"i will never love you
the cost of loves too dear
but though i'll never love you
i'll stay with you one year

and we'll sing in the sunshine....
................etc"

yes......!  i do, even i
can.................see!

one year.......

i must find out who she is so i can be who i am

one whole year

TOTAL RESPONSIBILITY
........
it turned out to be real easy
cause it was exactly what i always
wanted to do

it was what i always knew myself to be

standing up for the weakest
we find what is the deepest strength

commited to what is really real