paralyzed,
escaping,
running through pixels
& always chasing

all while still climbing the ladder
not the one you think
i'm just looking for what I need
which i know is nothing at all

constantly clawing my way
up to a new hole
never quite feeling
completely whole

saddened. it's maddening
why?
still don't know
it can't be the sad songs
that stay beautiful
is it an excuse?
or is it karmic debt?