You would not be,
You could not be,
Without drawing me
Into you 'mood,'
   on anything
        yours,
******* me around
     just for  the heck to
        see!

  And carry  me close--
     your 'loved' son
For whom you
     wanted to be the
         one
In charge and in your
     seat after you're
         gone;
And so I laid all else
     aside, faithful to
        your call,
So heard your word
     alone, and only at
        your nod had it
           done!

Then you were
     nightly fed evil
      misunderstanding,
As loving hearts too
     often are prone to
         slipping
On malicious dice cast
     by envious others,
        like 'echoes
           travelling
From the center like
     horses' wildly let
           loose--
Ah, and the brother
     who so wept to you
          over my
             sorrowing!

  I was mistaken---
As one of them days I
    had to awaken
Just to learn that you
    were taken
In death, and left a
     denial of my little
        rightful due:
'A will' contradicting
     the Qur'an, with
       father's love
          proven false and
             forsaken!

How night and day I
      stood by you and
          more, a willing
              sacrifise
At your fingertips, no
      question devoted
          without lies,
Deferential, tireless--
      surest among your
         ties,
I lived entire years
     suffering, accepting
Blame for anything
     that came to your
         mind without
           asking 'whys .'

They who put false
     love in token arms
Around your deluded
    dying head with
       seeming charms,
And falsely called
    whatever words
       you uttered
         'perfect
            and wise'--
Who led you to
     deviate from Allah's Holy Word
And thus corrupt your
     love as father, and
        so die in
          foresaken
             esteem--

Came around your
    coffin the day you
       died, perchance
To lift their heads up
    boldly, and with
       your 'will' in hand
          trace
Every bit of every
     thing that ever
        belonged to you--
           at once
A final heartbreak
     showing that
       together we didn't
          belong in spirit,
And that love, like me,
     was a mere
        pastime to you
          albeit parental
             disguise!
                                    
   (December 18, 2021)