You were supposed to care. You were supposed to be there, to hold my hand along the way, to stay, make me feel safe.
You were supposed to dance with me at prom. Hadn't we been waiting for so long? You had to be there when I went to college that very first day, reminding me constantly everything would be ok.
You were supposed to meet my first boyfriend and try to drive him out of town, but I never expected it to be the other way around. You needed to be there in my darkest times, telling me grades are just numbers, I'd be just fine.
You were supposed to teach me how to drive. Clutch, gear, brake! Don't worry, you'll survive! You had to be there when physics started being senseless, "yes it is! It's God's way to show us his Greatness!"
You were supposed to be there when I was performing on a stage, feeling proud I was finally making a change. You needed to be there to help me make desicions, support me while I was transforming my life's vision.
You are still supposed to be here. You are still supposed to care. I'm not supposed to feel fear every time I remember your face.
And I just know it all too well...
You won't be there on graduation to hug me and show appreciation. You won't be there when I get my first job, cheer me up saying "you rock!"
You won't be there to walk me down the aisle with tears in your eyes and in complete denial. You won't see how your grandchildren look, you'll never know if they resemble you.
You won't be there when I achieve my goals, you won't be there to celebrate them as yours.
So I won't be there when you need me the most. I won't be there to catch you when you fall. 'Cause you were supposed to care, to be there and hold my hand. To act like a real dad, to the daughter you once had...