I'm  dying....it's been like this for awhile now...I've grown,  good at hiding my pain behind my smile. I cry tears that no-one can see, I scream out in anguish--- wow-it's me....so tired of being strong, just wanna be free-- just wanna be allowed to be me. I'm dying.... bleeding on the inside... wanting to cry out... but can't abandon my pride; I'm a lion not a lamb;  gotta be strong... no-matter what... Oh-****! I never saw it coming, had no-time to prepare, mother-sister...why did you leave me there? Abandon, Eventhough you sent me back home.... I felt rejected and all alome. Mother-Sister, Why! Did you bring me home.... you never loved me the way you loved the other's.... I felt like a slave put aslide and left alone. Yea! You said that, You loved me but I couldn't tell.... it's okay --- I'm doing well. I've survived the abuse, the misuse, and the rest I want tell.... I love you mother-mother and I wish you well. I forgave you a long time ago.... that's why I can be here,  for you whatever-comes-or-go.Sister-Mother, I forgive you too, it's been hard but I have truely forgiven you. I'm dying, but now I'm dying to live, dying to love, and dying to forgive. Yea! I'm dying to live.