so im in my early twenties pretty lost not yet diagnosed with bipolar at the Trappist monastery monk dies his name is Brother Thomas I wear the robes chant participate in the funeral lay him down and the next day a monk says they found a note next to BrotherThomas's bed say that despite living as a monk for 60 plus years God in His sublimity and greatness remains forever beyond his reach the agony of it devote your life to God pray work seek every day for more than 60 years and still - can't find.  I'm not a monk, not exactly, but I also seek and cannot find Trappist 1 exoplanets i live alone know only prayer is silence and protective spirits - please keep my boys safe - please don't let the Trumpfucks win - the meditation hall all wood and glass this little library quiet will i die alone bangkok boston budapest rome

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