I thought I was playing it safe
I thought I was taking it slow
I thought I was getting to know a person
making a real connection
not acting out of lust or selfishness or boredom
I thought I was being responsible

I didn’t realize
I was falling the whole time
I didn’t realize
I was building something inside me
that couldn’t be destroyed
I didn’t realize
my heart was already making
an irreversible commitment
I didn’t realize
I was wrecking myself