a month of crying felt endless 2 weeks of finally being able to look at photos of memories gathered no longer bother and faze her she finally felt safe she finally could smile she finally no longer thought of him how is it that on this day it hits her like a thousand pound weight crushed on to her chest? she can't seem to catch her breath her cries are Lauder then ever 10 times more painful than before? how can this be to the point she pulls out her device that can end all of it she'll never feel anything ever again and at this moment that's all she wants relief from the torture that her hope, love and heart has put her through she opens he laptop writes frantically knowing it may relieve her constant addiction of ending everything. the writing only gives her relief temporarily it's in her peripheral it sits right beside her the thought of her thoughts and emotions finally at peace sounds so **** beautiful