I forgive myself...
For the eternity chasing in disguise
All the secret desires into the abyss
Into a hole I jumped never to be rescued
Decisions made solely to save self but instead drowned others
Criss-cross paths and stepped on thier shoes even though they deserve
Mentor with guilt
Advised with second thoughts
Not listening to my gut feeling;
If so I wouldn't be putting pen to paper for this

I forgave myself...
For forgiving them
Falling for retribution in my anger felt
Building bridges instead of walls for now they complain not having enough access
Ate from the same plate they poisoned for both to suffer
Drunk from the same well as well
I'll forgive self hastily
But forget not eternity.