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Jul 2023 · 63
Speak
Benton Scar' Jul 2023
Speak of truth
Not what either passive it as
Beliefs surely influence what to believe
Sticking to the stories told
But questioning their integrity of the same
Cancels the possibility of longevity
Different version imminently changes your truth
If I lie I'm a liar
Probably espionage to the Government
But if the same lied to me then that's propaganda
At times the understanding is paramount
At most it is not even necessary
If my predicament questions my loyalty,
Then it won't turn much sense for both to starve so to see who's loyalty deepens
It's wise to detach from those who's misfortunes and unlucky always follows their path.
Jun 2023 · 51
Forgiving
Benton Scar' Jun 2023
I forgive myself...
For the eternity chasing in disguise
All the secret desires into the abyss
Into a hole I jumped never to be rescued
Decisions made solely to save self but instead drowned others
Criss-cross paths and stepped on thier shoes even though they deserve
Mentor with guilt
Advised with second thoughts
Not listening to my gut feeling;
If so I wouldn't be putting pen to paper for this

I forgave myself...
For forgiving them
Falling for retribution in my anger felt
Building bridges instead of walls for now they complain not having enough access
Ate from the same plate they poisoned for both to suffer
Drunk from the same well as well
I'll forgive self hastily
But forget not eternity.
Jun 2023 · 41
Good Again
Benton Scar' Jun 2023
Given a lemon make a lemonade instead
Life throws up and you have to feed from it
Calling it a favour or count yourself lucky
If a name is a must
Give it your loyalty
And a cool shade of betrayal it echoes back
In the shadows of darkness some you didn't know when or where;
You got to the point
Point to you the light at the end of the tunnel
Believing in it you have
Or else let your hope die before your hands
Cold and dry nothing to feed from
And from the minute the hand gives you a minute
Never for you to account for one
But an explanation you owe to them
Much to whom and much was giveth, they say
But to some it's what much they have to take, I would say
Call it greed, I call it optimism.
Jan 2023 · 51
Untitled
Benton Scar' Jan 2023
Lay down the plans for the future
Future I'm into and I embrace it
A good vision is to exploit
Dreams so real I mistake for de ja vuu
Look all up in the sky and it looks good
Keep my face up the sun and the shadows fall back
So, I'm keep my eyes to the sky
Plans He only knows when and where
But Imma keep the hope
Walk with dignity and not erase the foot steps
I'm a soldier of wars
Wars I won and I never knew how or when.
A good life is to hope, a good heart is to live the hope.
Jan 2023 · 54
Thoughts
Benton Scar' Jan 2023
Past the roads that read danger
Into the choices I made to the exit that didn't exist
Past the days the moon met the sun
When the sun touched the sea floor
Floating its rays upon the fishers at dawn
Search till I see the faces that never was
Blackout on the things I went *******
Never despite their prayers to my creater
Survive their crusade for bad blood
Trip into the oblivion only them who wished never to fall into...
#thoughts #only #you can #relate now
Feb 2021 · 94
UNTITLED
Benton Scar' Feb 2021
Morning of the light
Came amid the chaos of darkness
No one knew it's importance since it's disappearance
Now the warmth feels more satisfying
No one belonged to the ages of time
To light up paths for others was unheard
To sacrifice self for the pain you'll feel once
To betray your trust in crossing the bridges for vowed not to
Walk into the darkness amid the stories told of creepy souls
It's a path You had to take
So you oblige
For this were the trails walked with ease
The uncertainty of tommorows beginnings knows no story of today's ending.
Sep 2020 · 54
AFTERNOON
Benton Scar' Sep 2020
I'm in for the eternity life promises
The agile raising sun gives new hope
Every second the hand gives me a minute
Justifies the will this universe entrusts
So I put my ego aside and sit with my trust
Untill the earth comes to its stillness
I'm for change, vigorous change
That which drains energy to the core but
left with enough strength to spot on
Sorrow not to blind my sight, and
Screams so loud not to hear the voices that lead me from the abyss
To now this sledge hammer before me
Then to the jungle up next, they say
To take all the work you laid on
Some that were a golden touch
Some that inflicted curses, not to mention the words that burned houses to their roots
Warm your feet from the ashes for this is your home now.
Burn bridges to keep yourself warmđŸ”„
Sep 2020 · 61
BOY
Benton Scar' Sep 2020
BOY
The last step of a lost son gone,
Never left for him to get lost
Just an open window; he saw and jumped in
In to the world but out of his captivity
Not thinking secondly of what awaits the other side
Either way he was ready to fight the beast
Or tame the cat: he was ready for the unkown
The thought of existance beyond the walls that he confined triggered his fear to strike the match and the search was on
The walk into the dark shivered his body wet
His eyes glowed and his sense not sensitive yet
Like a bird in a cage nothing to nest
Like a mind full of dreams I can't chase
Chase on the lies that made sense so you oblige
The truth that I lie on and made my bed to rest on
Truth is what I know now
Truth was wat I perceived when I knew none
To what's belief and what's wrong
For what's lust is not the road for it to be long.
The choices we makes and the steps we take are always to the good of Us and the people around us.
#Lost #discovery
May 2020 · 78
NIGHT
Benton Scar' May 2020
Feed into the dogs the flesh of hope
Stumble on little pieces of peace at hand
Crush onto thee feet that steps softs
Fight like underdogs unleashed
Lights out and darkness came
One light reflective
And a thousand stars
Fight to be true because weak is wicked
Jab to demons that hardly knew the souls to keep
And those to **** instant without jury.
Got all to ask, but this are just nightless thoughts at sleep.
I mean this are just sleeples thoughts at night.
#night #sleeplessnights
Nov 2019 · 120
It Was, It wasn't Easy.
Benton Scar' Nov 2019
It was easy to lie
It was easy to tell off and die
Sorrows but happiness was the plate to dine on
Dine into the cold the world curved me to ever be
It was easy to tell off but lie not
It was easy to sad off and smile
Smile from the faces of death, a friend, so I embrace it
It wasn't easy to go down on my knees and pray
It was easy to throw my faith into the dungeons for the prey
Fight back my misfortunes that I lay
Succeed and call it luck.
It wasn't easy
To lack and **** at everything I touch,
To let off this feelings and get hard
Numb from the pain felt because this pain wasn't gain
To feel the loss now that I never thought It could be, me
To fill this trash can with pieces that each sentence never satisfied
Each word that flashed so fast not to contemplate the goodness of it
Rogue and write never brought peace
Smile and dine never filled the stomach
Hard and fcku never felt in the womb...
It was easy to say, it wasn't easy to feel
Waiting to surprise like a tick tock bomb
Pleasure to **** the smile in their faces
Surpass their innocence with guilt
Stumble on their hearts never to see the goodness of it....
The hard things we find easy to do, the smooth things we find hard to do, never understood how or it worked that way...
Oct 2019 · 97
Departed
Benton Scar' Oct 2019
It took long to realize how uneven the scores got
Lost you to gain more, I thought.
But the intention wasn't to replace:I've tried
Was easy at first bt your departure left a void the rest failed to fill 
I was certain the loss wasn't loosing 
Bt their eyes stare and I'm scared
The walls you built around are crumbling down
Those attachments we were bound by faded
Left too early for me to realise the reasons for those wall, leave alone its importance 
I now feel lost for the addictions I fight hard to ascertain
Ascertaining that I'm bound to anything and the things I'm now made of...
I'm loosing the battles we set forth, but for the honor of your departure I'm keep the fight..
Spread the seed U've planted over years..
Hope this won't live me in tears
For the memories I hold and fears
Fears that Imma loose more than those mere impacts I once thought...
Rest In Peace old friend.
#losr #friend
Sep 2019 · 167
Angels In The City
Benton Scar' Sep 2019
Angels in the city
Angels that fly high in sky
Save those on cries n pity
Feathered white
With black outlines...

Fly thru clouds with little light
Thru storms with little life
Keep my head high in the clouds
Whilst My feet stumbled on the ground
Sep 2019 · 89
Drown Dead
Benton Scar' Sep 2019
I fall into a pool full of liqour and in it am drunk drown
Intricates me,though not to death.
Can't call for help,
My feet stuck between the corals underneath,
And I learn to coexist rather than fight back.
To breath life inside it and I embrace it.
Like a speeding train I cant jump off
Like a tik tok time bomb I already stepped on,
I burn from withing
Poetry ice cold for my resentment.
Sep 2019 · 90
S.M.I.L.E.
Benton Scar' Sep 2019
I have a beauty and a sense I treasure
Already found the perfect way to express pleasure
I look deep into my soul for eternity
For the profound guilt that I host in smile;
I look upon the transformation and I smile
Found friends and allies
Those that lied but I knew and I smiled
Burn from within but put that mask in hide
Its too much to pay attention
Smile before it got all expensive
Smile before the time comes and kneel on their knees asking for forgiveness
Smile cause that's what I learned first before words
Thank God for another day
Smile cause He assured of a brighter days
Smile cause joy cometh in the morning
It's profound to smile, they says it makes the face more beautiful than the sunset, even if found in guilt, I suggest you smile
Sep 2019 · 107
M.O.R.N.I.N.G
Benton Scar' Sep 2019
The sun set and the light came
The rays rouse from the ground where it lay
Kissed the skin not yet pale
Woke up new from the old dreams
Chasing life in fantasy of the dreams last night
That had balled and life was just a mere disturbance
The reality strikes hard
This time no exception
In rules of life get hard or go home
It is just another day to find happines in shumbles
Smile to the sky, shine light on your face
Love life, be kind
Be mine and never leap to leave
Sep 2019 · 80
"CONFLICTED"
Benton Scar' Sep 2019
I never knew how to get to you
I never knew how this could best fit
I never had clue what was
But I need to shoot my shot no matter how blind the night will be
I could be glad if it saw some light
So I decide to write a letter...
May be now I could reach n search n find the words that fit perfectly, though so light,
In this words I'll speak my intentions and more
I would like to see the future in this but Imma keep it close
I see forth the benefits of this
So I search for words careful not to spark contrary to my motive
Neither spare to be regarded irrelevant
Less words will be straight but the heart is not In consensus with brain
So I'm find a way to listen to both
My Heart likes your kindness but brains goes for  your Wit
Heart likes the sync in your heart when you are around
The brain thinks you're sarcastic and fun
"I Like You."
So I'm keep it short.
All said...
Sep 2019 · 74
Untitled
Benton Scar' Sep 2019
Lay down the plans for the future
Future I'm into and I embrace it
A good vision is to exploit
Dreams so real I mistake for de ja vuu
Look all up in the sky and it looks good
Keep my face up the sun and the shadows fall back
So, I'm keep my eyes to the sky
Plans He only knows when and where
But Imma keep the hope
Walk with dignity and not erase the foot steps
I'm a soldier of wars
Wars I won and I never knew how or when.
A good Hope is to keep,
A good life is to dream,
A better life is to hope.
Jun 2019 · 100
Self.
Benton Scar' Jun 2019
I put down my fears every now and then.
Post them on my wall may be to speak to them.
To speak to themselves so as to speak to me.
Speech to them while speaking to self,
Glue it on the wall for passers-by to get a glipse, sympathize then walk away: customary.
Written all over my faces for the expressions that I feel.
Nurse the scars whilst alone.
Have that smiley face mask for the turn up.
The brain thinks, the heart saddens the smile, dries the lips and drains the tears
Seek friendship, drown into lonliness and carry the long weight await.
Stub self for the care that I took for them to feel at home
Wripped my shoulder when it was up for grabs
Treat their hearts good but their minds quicker to forget
Only came forth when their souls were up for sale..
Everyone has a refugee camp, an escaping plan or a must do when in the betrayed emotions. Stick to your escapes.
Jun 2019 · 105
Artless
Benton Scar' Jun 2019
How could I tell water formation is not science bt Gods plan
That I woke up not special
That I fight not my plan
That I wore victory not mine
Killed all including my clan
Source victory that never was
Sore wounds that came out of sacrifice
Killed for them
But wat of my memories I ask..
Demons keep hunting me deep
Souls keep hunting me steel
Shallow sleep be my resentment
Only I fear their wrath
For deep sleep is loosing
Mercy wasn't for them
Faith shallow than desert rivers
Bur never seemed to have an option
Speak to the realms to set me free
Talk to reality
Chains too tight I can't talk...
Like _god of war_
Am caged in the battlefields for eternity.
Don't take #sacrifices for them..their #demons n lost souls will haunt You to #Eternity.
Jun 2019 · 104
NIGHT
Benton Scar' Jun 2019
Feed into the dogs the flesh of hope
Stumble on little pieces of peace at hand
Crush onto thee feet that steps softs
Fight like underdogs unleashed
Lights out and darkness came
One light reflective
And a thousand stars
Fight to be true because weak is wicked
Jab to demons that hardly knew the souls to keep
And those to **** instant without jury.
Got all to ask, but this are just nightless thoughts at sleep.
I mean this are just sleeples thoughts at night.
Good souls to keep
Jun 2019 · 77
World
Benton Scar' Jun 2019
Woke up to the old world i knew
Nothing changed from  the old to new
That world that had:
The killers who killed with passion
The patriots who  lived n die fighting for their nation
The egoistic who stamped their chest for having their perception.
Those clever enough to call others fools
Clads and look cool
Those that thought had loved enough to think of others only hating
Those friends that cared only for benefiting
The love birds that made a world out of shambles, mistakes and imperfections
Those preachers that taught us how to vote
Those politicians who teaches us to pray
A lost world that always  seems familiar
To its core that breeds jealousy and love and hatred.... Bt those that loved true never lack though the most hurt by it....
#Love and #Hate has the same intensity
Jun 2019 · 229
Sad Story, Why.
Benton Scar' Jun 2019
She went down on her knees clueless and prayed to heavens; if it existed, that assissination thoughts don't clog her intentions to live, seeing the faces of the people who turned against her.
That being she called dad for years turned into beast, the women she loved to heart just turned untrustworthy, now society is all judging for the product of ****** she carries. To whom will she run to, dreams smashed into the walls of pain and deceit from those monsters, she thought and wept bitterly.
#Lost #***** #betrayed
Feb 2019 · 106
You, Me
Benton Scar' Feb 2019
The shell of a man who couldn't be of his own, me.
Not to judge and care for me,
Love and hate the problem with me
Not to take my life and be,
Dine into emotions  i never felt still,
Lost love that i had to steal,
Fast and pray for friends without a meal,
Deliver the essence with skill
Have something in my head still,
Propagate their strengths to ****,
****** own soul to be at peace,
Not to speak of death in this piece,
Clothe their **** left bare,
Love their souls and care,
I glare but i stare.
But Before i grew i knew, to set the new i said i grew that their love was never forgotten. *@notneB-Art*
#Me
Feb 2019 · 114
Thoughts
Benton Scar' Feb 2019
Past the roads that read danger
Into the choices I made to the exit that didn't exist
Past the days the moon met the sun
When the sun touched the sea floor
Floating its rays upon the fishers at dawn
Search till I see the faces that never was
Blackout on the things I went *******
Never despite their prayers to my creater
Survive their crusade for bad blood
Trip into the oblivion only them who wished never to fall into...
#Thoughts #Frienship #blood # oblivion
Dec 2018 · 208
Silence
Benton Scar' Dec 2018
The silence of a gun never meant the cease of a war
The silence of word never meant the tongue was at war
Dining with demons that had U good
Mistaken your silence for absence
Your retreat for your cowardness
Over reaction for madness
Retract and the soul was lost amidst other lost souls
You're angry and i mistook it for weakness
That tremble on your lips was worth the put down of your tongue
But the flow in your eyes told tales that your tongue failed to set forth
A flow of pain crossing down the beautiful valley and mountains of your cheeks
It felt solely as absence grew
Memories that never was
That you never knew
Showed your back on my facet
Never to retrace the lost step
Back to the unpleading heart.
Dec 2018 · 290
Late night
Benton Scar' Dec 2018
I thought of the idea I couldn't weep
I thought of the idea i couldn't sleep
Late night movies watching creep
Never been a champ at my crib
Loved her and treated her like my rib
Into the throne like a queen
Old songs i sang to my sleep
Tormented enough not for my dream
Thousand opportunities i saw them slip
Into the night the rain falls still
Thunders strikes hard
Turn up my eyes to the dark gay sky and I strain still
Did my exams at the main
Hard day for love I felt the lain
Never greed
But felt the slain
Never promised to love again
Last time caused my manners had my feeds
This ain't the old you knew
But a replica  of whats new..
late night talks
Its a rainny night and thoughts flood like roads from the heavy rain that fell heavy....
All about love and being love back...
Oct 2018 · 396
ABSCENCE
Benton Scar' Oct 2018
The silence of a gun never ment the cease of a war
Silence of words never ment the tongue was at war
Dining with the demons that had U good

Mistaken your silence for absence
Your retreat for your cowardness
Over reaction for your madness
Retract and the soul was lost amidst other lost souls
You're angry and i mistook it for weakness.

That tremble on your lips was worth the put down of your mouth
But the flow in your eyes told tales that your tongue failed to set forth.

A flow of pain crossing down the beautiful valley and mountain of ur cheeks
It felt solely silent as the minds flew..

It felt solely as absence grew
Memories that never was
That you never knew
Showed your back on my facet
Never to retrace the lost step
Back to the unpleading heart.
#tears of tales
#love
#Benny254
#tears
Sep 2018 · 231
*CONK*
Benton Scar' Sep 2018
When I die now
Tell them who loved never to hate
Those hate never to worry
Worry because I won't bother
Bother them with this and that
That piece of mind which wrote this
that yet the heart were in pieces
Pieces that fell and heard a rythm song
A song they' ll sing once every year
Each year as my memories fade from their faces
Never to remember the ugliness of it
Tell not the arts I wrote nor
The words that had Me most
Bt not a word sayed to retain
Scars that had me deep in skin
Say to e'm
It won't be a sad way out
Clothed black because I wasn't pure
Pure from the evils that had me layed under its core
If a die today...
Tell them its a coarse
It will be a celebration in grieving
But they'll understand before judging
That I had to rest
My death left no tears
They'll wish to atest..
#death #conk Never heard the courage to talk death...bt Here the piece came
I wrote to be in peace with my concious art..
Sep 2018 · 312
Artless
Benton Scar' Sep 2018
How could I tell water formation is not science bt Gods plan
That I woke up not special
That I fight not my plan
Killed all including my clan
Source victory that never was
Sore wounds that came out of sacrifice
Killed for them
But wat of my memories I ask..
Demons keep hunting me deep
Souls keep hunting me steel
Shallow sleep be my resentment
Only I fear their wrath
For deep sleep is loosing
Mercy wasn't for them
Faith shallow than desert rivers
Bur never seemed to have an option
Speak to the realms to set me free
Talk to reality
Chains too tight I can't talk...
Like _god of war_
Am caged in the battlefields for eternity.
Your #Sacrifice for them is not worth thy #Soul..Their #Demons n #Lostsouls will haunt #You to #Eternity
Sep 2018 · 461
Gone
Benton Scar' Sep 2018
Open yours eyes at the dim of the lights
All was gone never to return
Never heard the alarm sound
though you whispered your confession that it was too loud to be ignored
Now the reality gloats how detached it left Us
Beating its chest hard like a raging king Kong
Always hate when warning seems and you swerve
All the unlimited times we bound
And a bridge we made
Crossing from two different mountains standing
Yet a common river fed us both
Now that river seems like a seasonal stream in the desert
Only its flow left to glare
Only bottom rocks left to stare
None will quench their thirst on the soft sandy soil that the cool waters left
With tym the memories we hold will fade fast than forest burnt
With tym our lips will grow pale and rough
Never to speak sweet words that touched...
break up is a *****; refering to female dog..
Aug 2018 · 135
Remember When...
Benton Scar' Aug 2018
Remember the love we had
Remember the world was once against Us...
Loved till they hated
Remember When we used to...
Chit chat ourselves to sleep
Talk the night out
Call n texted unlimitedly
Kiss our mouths dry
Cuddle our warmths up
just remember when we fought battles and never lost
Remember when u loved this ugly face
Remember u confessed obsession to this curves
Liked my abs n larts
Just remember making babies n naming them in our own virtual world
Remember the dreams that made u sunken in love
Remember the reality that u had
Remember this and never to forget
Remember this as the accient taboo went..
Aug 2018 · 129
Am New Here It Thought
Aug 2018 · 152
Angels In The City
Benton Scar' Aug 2018
Angels in the city
Angels that fly high in sky
Save those on cries n pity
Feathered white
With black outlines...

Fly through clouds with little light
Through storms with little life
Keep my head high in the clouds
Whilst My feet stumbled on the ground.....

— The End —