LIFE AS I KNOW IT

I was born not knowing what tragedy my life would see
At first things seemed just as pleasant as they could be
But something was wrong-I could feel it deep inside
As the years went by, all I wanted to do was run and hide

My mom left me when I was nearly five years old
Her death really traumatized me if the truth be told
I saw her lying in her bedroom dead on the floor
Taking her own life; I couldn’t handle it anymore

I withdrew for my own safety into a shell
My life had just become a living Hell
We were never to bring her up anymore
It was as though she never was-it hurt me to the core

My sister Sue decided she couldn’t cope
She turned to liquor and pills for some kind of hope
Tragically, she died at forty three from the work of her own hands
It was more tragedy and sadness than I could truly stand

Not more than two years later-the month being the same
My brother Mike starved himself to death-what a shame
He had so much to live for if he would have opened his eyes
It was so **** difficult for me to say my final goodbyes

So, you see, my life is far from what it used to be
My heart and soul ache as I pray on bended knee
God, please watch over me as I continue down my road
Help me to move forward as I carry this very heavy load!