I'm looking for my rabbit hole to OZ.
    I want to meet God and see how He uses
    His levers and gears to control my life.
    I know He helped me get that job I so
    desperately needed. I know He put us in
    the same bar at the same time to marry
    and have our house and child and Rusty
    who taught me perseverance by chasing
    ***** right up 'til the day he died and
    taught me what true grief really is.