i went up to you
and said "i got a
C!" and you smiled
and knew that i
was very proud.
you gave me
permission to
get closer with
your eyes and
i did.

you then smiled,
asked when my next
test was and i
answered back,
"in two weeks."
you smiled and
then we became silent.

i looked at you and
decided it was time
to tell you how i
felt.

"congrats, i heard you're
engaged. thats amazing."
and he smiled and said,
"yes, i am. its wonderful,
thank you!" and he had this
light in his eyes when he
said this to me.

i told him to have a
good day and before he
said anything, i walked
out.

i felt the need to puke and
cry and i wasn't sure of
what to do because
I'm so completely in
love with you.

im so happy for him
and i know i shouldn't
feel this way but,
i really wish he had that
same light in his eyes
when he talks to
me.