I have become accustomed
to the feeling
of building up walls
only to have them shatter
engulfing me
in false pretenses
inadequate misinformation
and all-around
good for nothing
lies

trying to wade through the dust
get out
get out
only to have it
grow
bigger
deeper
impossible to escape

now
I know how to swim
but for some reason
all knowledge alludes my mind
leaving me frozen
not like ice though
because I sink
drowning
down
down

now choking on the dust
ashes
of memories
people
lives that once danced
to the song of life
with me
now trap me
in darkness

but wait
I can see a light
the dust, once settled
stirs just so
a foot marches overhead
I try
screaming
nothing
not a sound
I remember
how frozen I am
thanks to my cold heart

the footsteps past
I am left in darkness
unable to stay in this world
unable to make a move to leave
unable to tell
real reality from my reality