Resist the narcissist

At first I fall
Head over heels to a man perfect dark
and tall
But as for me unfortunately
I grew up to read
books like Sarah plain and tall
With an understanding that my looks would
not enthrall
still you persist you pursue you even call
Desperate for love for attention I'm
in awe
But Suddenly overtime little by little you make me
feel small
I'm stupid I'm dumb I can't do anything right
at all
The white horse the fairytale the dark prince all under false pretense
Like a nice frame  to cover the whole in
the wall
Everything's fine he's just tense
it's ok  he's still my prince because growing up
I saw
My parents kick and fight and scream down
the hall
For me it was normal this was the only love I can recall
So I try harder on my hands and knees I crawl
I was wrong
Your a monster not a boyfriend
On the bed I'm pinned  
It's a fight I cant win
I drown in your sin
And then
And then
I escape at 3 am
I'll never go back
Never again