what are we if not calculative creatures a dichotomous breed with in born bias, struggling between believers and preachers -we are sinful souls who aim to be pious we claim to be depressed and live to be impressed craving profanity while questioning our sanity, we are suffering in the this hell of paradoxes that challenge our intel it's funny how we want touch and affection oh so much but we're afraid to open up and give expecting other's hearts to help us live we have voids and spaces too large that nothing could ever in barge thus we will end up alone with our fates set in stone we want to be stimulated, both physically & mentally longing for someone to take away our ability to think clearly or walk steadily, confused because we don't know what we need basically is it mere pleasure we look for or something deeper do we implore? covered bodies yet naked minds, what is it that we are unable to find? peace or chaos? calm or applause? somebody to awaken our deeper desires or a superficial night of playing with fire?
i don't really know what's more important mental stimulation or physical fulfilment......neither or both? and if there's nothing, still is it worth being with that person? what does it make me, eh?