started three 12-hour shifts in a row the hospital is home for the next three days my actual house is now a hotel sympathetic wife, cozy cats, comfy bed but my interest and energy my life force is here it's a weird freedom no one cares what i think or say or even do decent food, the soups are good thrills and spills, dueling with disease juggling the maladies of the patients trying to make a dent in their suffering smoking females underfoot flashing eyes above masks snug scrubs showcasing enticing rumps fantasies on every floor ahhh, the days of a healer home again