Each breath rattles my fragile windpipe;
Each glance towards you is a mistake.
Every step is another further towards my grave.
I trace my veins with the back of my hand, defying your commanding gaze.
I resist what every fiber of my being demands.
Breathe in, breathe in, and yet again, in.
Til the air bubbles back and I am left gasping and aching.
Each kiss fulfills the here and now; ceases all thought.
The braking of a train, the breaking of my heart.
Detach and try to untangle myself from this web of sweet perfection.
I pretend that I am omnipotent; I pretend the emotions that pass between are translucent.
Each touch, each caress, is the start of a bitter sweet addiction.
Every moment, every second, every minute, every hour with you is a beautiful disaster.