He almost quit writing because someone Said when you post its like you're telling your feelings to a computer. It was his way to vent his free therapy since it was expensive. He didn't like to yell or argue to be heard so writing became his outlet outside of MMA and work.
He was called crazy for what he did and how he did things. The dream was real in his mind even though no one put in the time or work like he did.
He had an uncle that told him he didn't belong and told him to step aside let someone else have his spot.
At the time his life was a crisis too many distractions and family issues he had no say or control over.
Most of them came at him sour he couldn't associate with them anymore. Always seen as the bad guy for pursuing a dream. Being an individual they tell him be a man but then try to stop him from doing so.
All the confusion and frustration; be this way, be that way in the end what ever he did; didn't matter to them because it wasn't about them or what they are doing. Selective when they cared or gave a ****