Today I missed you more than any day
I missed your voice
Your hugs
Your smell

I missed the way you looked at me
The way you held my hand
Or how you we used to watch tv

I imagined you falling asleep on my chest
I imagined listening to our favorites songs
I imagined having you by my side again

I don’t know how many times I mentioned your name
I don’t know how many times I wanted to call you and tell you about what I have done

I went to an art museum
And I couldn’t stop picturing you watching everything
I couldn’t stop thinking about buying stuff that I knew you would like

But then I remember you are no longer there for me
I remembered our story is over
I remembered you finished writing the last chapter of us
Even if I was unaware of it

And I remember you don’t even care about me know
I remembered how when I was recently at my lowest and called you, you didn’t respond
And you closed total contact with me
Not caring about how I felt and not caring if I didn’t survive this one time