How do I forget?

How do I escape the memory of someone who meant much to me?



I wonder if anyone else in the world faces this problem too.



She was tender, kindhearted, and non-judgmental.

She held me like my mother used to hold me when I was little.

But that's not why I miss her.



In my religion, we call homosexuality a sin.

That's why I describe our relationship as a mirage.



I don't miss her for the *** or any of that mess.

I miss her for her friendship and the numerous conversations we had.



Honestly, she was a best friend I didn't have since my mother passed away.

Nor will I ever have again.



Although, I don't believe I was a profoundly good friend to her.

I did things I regret and other things I can't take back.



Now I lie away from a dream I had about her.

Wondering how in the world I can get her back into my life.