Sep 2022
We used to be much closer
Friends, just you and me
We'd hug and laugh, not knowing
That soon you'd choose to leave
I miss the laugh you had
The one not filled with spite
I miss when we'd play Jenga
Now all we do is fight
You borrowed drinks of hellfire
Before you even knew
You had changed your eyes to anger
Hazel looked so good on you
Now they flash red with fury
Whenever I dare speak
Dear sister, I am trying
To turn the other cheek
But both cheeks now are ragged
Torn, you've struck them both
In waters of your good graces
I'm fighting just to float
People ask if I miss you
I don't know what to say
I miss you oh so badly
But not the "you" this way
I miss the forest fairy
Who used to hold my hand
She wanted my approval
Now she's slipped away like sand
I don't know what to do now
How do I get her back?
Your skin is turning ashen
Your eyes are turning black
I miss my baby sister
I want her home again
But not when you're sinister
I dearly miss my friend
I fear that I have lost you
I cannot reach you now
You've fallen far too deep
Now both of us will drown.
Friends, just you and me
We'd hug and laugh, not knowing
That soon you'd choose to leave
I miss the laugh you had
The one not filled with spite
I miss when we'd play Jenga
Now all we do is fight
You borrowed drinks of hellfire
Before you even knew
You had changed your eyes to anger
Hazel looked so good on you
Now they flash red with fury
Whenever I dare speak
Dear sister, I am trying
To turn the other cheek
But both cheeks now are ragged
Torn, you've struck them both
In waters of your good graces
I'm fighting just to float
People ask if I miss you
I don't know what to say
I miss you oh so badly
But not the "you" this way
I miss the forest fairy
Who used to hold my hand
She wanted my approval
Now she's slipped away like sand
I don't know what to do now
How do I get her back?
Your skin is turning ashen
Your eyes are turning black
I miss my baby sister
I want her home again
But not when you're sinister
I dearly miss my friend
I fear that I have lost you
I cannot reach you now
You've fallen far too deep
Now both of us will drown.
I miss my baby sister. 2 years ago she was a completely different person. She was happy and always laughing, she was perfectly happy to help in any way, now she doesn't even thank me when I do things for ger in hopes of winning her back. She's become closer with some friends who are influencing her in a bad way, and now she's just angry, especially at me, she turns everything into an argument, she doesn't eat hardly anything, it's like she's wasting away right in front of me. I prayed for a baby sister for 5 years when I was a kid. We've had our rough patches, but we've always made up. I still remember the day she was born, going to see her and my mom in the hospital with my grandma. I'm clinging desperately to hope that the same sweet baby sister I prayed for is in there somewhere, and that when she's ready, she will come out, and we can go back. I've always wanted a sister to be best friends with. Now I wonder if she even loves me anymore.
