I don't want you to become another foreign thing in my closet and inside I ask myself what I expected What I was hoping? Every secret thought, I don't capture them all.
And your memories: those I deem property of Chris inside my head, play on a spanish loop with He Venido on low in the background.
I don't plan on getting rid of you. Or forgetting you, or burying your face behind stacks of books, The Count, The Little Prince, A Clockwork Orange, Things Fall Apart, and most of all the Lemony Snicket hardcover that you hid condoms in, the ones we never used.
I have tried to document you because I hope that it will help or that you will see these things, but I have taken your willpower for granted. You perhaps write nothing of me, maybe in a diary maybe no where maybe I am buried, maybe I am gone maybe you have ripped out my pages, my pictures, my hair from thoughts no longer strays on your bed, maybe you have chosen to move on.