Fed the scraps
Accepting the slight
Mere ways things
Were better than before
But obsession isn't love
"I love you" isn't an apology
Ideas and imaginations aren't love

Actions speak louder than words
I hoped for acceptance, you gave me
Regurgitated words and thoughts
I hoped for simpler times
You gave me conflicts
And a new part
In my endless
Cycle of this
Pain

It was set up, but I was never warned
Dove into the water head first
Didn't stop to think, not even once
We both wanted happiness,
Neither of us truly are
You may not understand
I didn't either, not at first
But obsession isn't love
"I love you" isn't an apology
Ideas and imagination aren't love

When I saw the flags
Bright scarlet, waving
I ignored them, set them aside
Right in front of me, didn't hide
The facts hit me like waves
But I wouldn't face the truth

I was in love with a fairytale
The idea of you, just as you
Are obsessed with the idea of me
So much so that after a breakup
You mourned louder than a baby
For days and nights, you grieved
Inconsolable, nearly sent away
Nearly sent away, all because;
Obsession isn't love,
"I love you" isn't an apology
Ideas and imagination aren't love
And regurgitating more than simply thoughts
Shouldn't have even happened,
Nor should we have gotten back together

What can I do, what can I say?
There's a line between healthy
And prodding concern
There's a line between love
And deep rooted obsession
There's a line between odd
And perverse collections
There's a line between us
That neither wanted to see
But it's there, it's clear
But lines are often ignored,
Or well worn and misunderstood

Neither wants to face the truth
Surely none moreso than you
But this is all that I can do
So just as predicted,
It's time to see this through;
The story of me and you
Should end here
Not tomorrow,
Not next week;
Now, when you're done
Reading these last few words.

- Jay M
August 26th, 2022