the classroom i sit in, with baggy eyes and a heavy heart, is cornering me and strangling me, leaving claw marks on my neck. the walls close in and my lungs can’t find another way to breathe. they weren’t taught any other methods but heaving. what am i doing in this classroom? feeling misplaced learning about nothing i need about nothing i will use in the future. in the back of the room, hidden behind smiles and jokes of more lively teenagers. they belong here. i don’t. i don’t belong.
first day of school. kinda fun, kinda awkward, kinda stressful. is this year gonna be better than the last?