Forgiveness has never been an issue
"I forgive you" is easy for me to say
But my mind
My overthinking mind
Just won't let me forget.
Today i woke up okay and happy to be healing
Tomorrow I realize, I wasn't healing yesterday
It's just that my mind had a lot to think about, so it gave me a break.
I'm past crying in the shower stage
I'm past the bleeding heart stage
And I'm so unsure of my life and if I'll ever be the same again
If I'll ever be sane again
Because each day I realize,
I never really healed, my wounds just stopped bleeding
I never forget, my tired mind just gives me breaks
I realize that I'll learn to trust again, just not today
And my memories will haunt me (the good and the bad ) and it will feel like sandpaper on my wounds each day
But that's okay because now I know pain is part of healing too
Because I bĺed until it stopped
I will ache until I heal
Might be sore once in a while, to remind me of what I have survived
But healing is a process and I refuse to rush through so I take baby steps till I get there
Jojo. poetry