I have spent the better part of my life
Feeling like feelings are going to tear me
To pieces
The programming of my brain has
The gain set
Way too high so
Everything
Is an assault on the neurons that
Can't fire fast enough
Too bright
Too loud
Too sad
Too angry
Too tired

Too much

I collapsed inward

Soldiering on for the sake of
Appearances
I can feel the restlessness rending
My ribcage in half
So I'm pleading with whoever will
Listen
To make it stop
Please
Make
It
Stop
The anxious pacing of my neurons
The fervor of my frantic mind
The scrambling
Scrabbling
Scared
Lizard brain
Stuck in a loop
Fight, flight, freeze
Fight, flight, freeze
Fight
Flight
Freeze

Fight