I make my sobriety look effortless
Like I don't want to dive back in
To the cool refreshing relief of
An extra ***** ***** martini
With those bleu cheese olives
Garnishing the destructive nectar
I still sometimes dream about
Or the amber bourbon neat
A whole bottle to put me to sleep
The strobing lights whispering
A slew of lips I may have kissed
Or shared a cigarette with
Or a box of Chardonnay
I so badly miss those quick moments
Of bliss right before the blackout

I make my sobriety look effortless
Because I don't want to be seen as
Someone struggling in the open
Salivating to find that numbness
Waking up to aggressive regret
And another upset stomach