there's a bottle by my head
I just want to go to bed
It made me feel so tired
but a the fuel started a fire

and my heart begins to race
and my mind is out of place
it seems I left my sanity
on memories and broken dreams

My thoughts are blurring out now
I can't seem to find out how
but I can barely write these words
the sentences in herds

The spelling can't be right
just thinking is a fight
because it helps me sleep
I had a drink, it came out in heaps

Now a headache starts to rise
the screen is straining my eyes
and I try to go to sleep
but secrets are hard to keep

I'd mention about the lines
the dance across my shoulder
I never expose them, nonsense
I'm afraid of your cruel comments

They're pale and white, but you can see
I've felt so alone, for eternity
I wanted just to hold you
but I found I couldn't pursue

I took a chance and asked you
about coffee and walks and the zoo
and when you told me that you would
I thought I finally understood

That I don't need those bottles or pills
they were supposed to protect me from ill
but I needed your touch and kiss
to know it gets better than this