i was so terrified of losing you for the longest time
that i became angry with myself
for not finding the perfect solution
to reinvent myself
to make you stay in my garden

i wondered what i could do to make things better
for you to only praise the ground i walked on

day and night i fought battles alone
to become your dream

but then i realized you were sleeping
and never wished to wander
among the roses in my garden

and that made me realize
that you were never the gardener
that i deserved nor should have ever wished to have

for i am the owner of my garden
and i have the power to decide
who should smell the petals on my roses