basically, i hung out with my friend today downtown. we had fun at first, but then she went to a skatepark in this basement thing and a lot of her friends were there. it was kinda awkward for me. i had such a weird feeling in my stomach. it felt like i shouldn’t be there. but you know, i don’t wanna be friends with drug addict sk8er teens. and maybe i don’t wanna be friends with her anymore cause she hurts me and makes me feel away from the stable grasp of reality. idk tho

4/30/22