there are not enough words
to ever describe how I felt
on the night that never happened

there are not enough lies
to fold up neatly into blunt edges
to wipe away tears that never fell

there are not enough truths
to destroy, to de-story
to violate memories that will never be remembered

yet, there is enough pain,
there is too much pain,
and there is enough pain
to last me and I
a lifetime