i think i am alive still because i don't remember anyone murdering me but i know that this may be an illusion

and that actually as the budhists say IT IS ALL an illusion and that life and death too are illusions and if this makes sense to you then that sense is an illusion and if it confuses you than that confusion is an illusion

but i think that while much of this place is illusionary not all of it is

but i also know that the people that i call real still think of me as an illusion or something actually they don't like thinking about because they would rather call what i think about conspiracy theory or illusion

i call them chicken ****

and so it is