So it’s getting to that time of year Where I dream of you endlessly With a gun against your head And I can’t believe It’s going to be 8 years that you’ve been dead
I hope you know You turned my life upside down How many stupid things I did Because I had let you down
I didn’t see the signs And I’m sorry for that So ******* sorry that you’ll never know I’m still waiting for your reasonings A letter that’ll never come But I’m still breathing to make you proud Have I done that? A college graduate at 22, Have I done that? Beating an eating disorder and this **** depression too.
Ill never know. The only thing I’m sure of is that I watch out for the signs now. Because suicide ended your pain And started mine.