I'm not sure how to explain what it is that caused the pain. I know the past has caused damage to my developing brain, what is right and wrong may have been blurred. She opened eyes that were closed and SCREAMED ******* LOOK! For once I finally saw, for once I finally witnessed, for once I became what it is I hated! Since then she's been gone, since then I haven't quit regretting, for I know I'm the cause! Born to an environment that demands pain, raised in an environment that maintains the birth, with no recollection or memory of something that resembles love! It's the ******* TRUTH!