If the mind ceases to wander
if what is sane becomes obtained
or find what I am after
blow out my ******* brains

If I ever feel complete
or somehow feel content
if struggle becomes obsolete
leave my life force to be spent

If everything seems normal
and no awkward words are spoke
or this existence thought as formal
just slit my ******* throat

If I ever am fulfilled
or become satisfied
my resolve will be killed
and my drive will surely die